Useless

When you are regularly asked to do pointless grunt work, it messes with your brain. I just had a chat with a coworker and we were joking that we should be grateful for this mundane work. I said: "I shall pray to the god of shame, hopelessness and uselessness praising him for the opportunity to let yet another part of my brain atrophy from underuse." But it made me realize that this is yet another reason I am not content with my work. I don't feel like I am using my brain the way it is meant to bend and for better or worse, and it seems to me, mostly worse, I take EVERYTHING personally, so this sort of routine work can start to make you feel that the only purpose you serve is to do purposeless work.

It is always impressive to me the people who are routinely asked to perform such tasks but who maintain a cheerful attitude. I think these people must be able to find a purpose outside of their job. They are content on the inside and so being asked to do the thankless task by a person who doesn't want to do the dirty work, doesn't touch their sense of self-worth. I would like to be one of these people because my entire job is pointless. I think it would help me if I could go to some zen-like place when someone asks me for a stapler or if I could look up some information for them, information they themselves would have found in the same time it took them to ask me to do it. It is not worth it to be so upset about everything here all the time. I am doing the work. I just have to keep trying to do it and find other ways to feel good. Interestingly, this helped: http://www.oprah.com/article/oprahshow/200910-omag-oprah-interviews-jay-z. It was a really good interview. Jay-Z is crazy smart and I was impressed by a lot of his insights.

Now back to the useless