Dear Unfulfilled Dream

I think I would have made a great spy.

No, I truly believe it. I am certain.

I also know that I could say that to someone and they would say, you should do it. They would be encouraging and say I should do it.

And I would hesitate and do nothing.

I think that is lame. I mean, the spy thing isn't really an option, but I am always saying things I want or should do and then...crickets. Nothing. The worst part? I didn't even realize I was the sort of person who was all talk and no action. I thought I worked hard and got stuff done, and sometimes I do, but I don't take action on what I want. I thought I was being patient. I thought that I was waiting for things to happen because eventually they would. I didn't know the waiting would become a stalemate. 

I think the answer is just do it, but it really doesn't seem that simple to me. It should be. I know I need to just do something. But what and how? I know it's pathetic whining. I know there are people who live and people who would live if they were healthy and single. I am sorry that I am not doing more, but who cares about sorry if there is no change?

Hello, corner. I love the color I have chosen to paint myself into you. Fabulous.

Anyways...

I will do something. It will be fantastic, not in deed, but because of accomplishment. Or in deed, because I have done it in a fitted, black, bullet-proof suit, and heels; hanging upside down from the outside of a 125-story building after having saved Johnny Depp and THE WORLD.

me